For me, personally, spanking, CP and discipline is not BDSM but something very real and a personal need that is held by many. As a practicing disciplinarian my whole adult life I understand your need for a connection with the man who puts you over his knee or pillows on the bed. I have been in several domestic discipline relationships with genuine results. Discipline can take many forms depending on the needs and who is being disciplined. For some females it is not possible for them to have marks post discipline. I have other equally effective and cerebral punishments that leave no marks but still deliver the required results. Quite common actually. I always discipline in a responsible and caring manner which leaves you feeling both chastised but also nurtured and looked after. No ones needs are the same and it’s not in my nature to assume hence I do like to chat and discuss openly in a mature manner the individual needs. I hope you feel able to at least say hello and chat?